New Year's Newness

For the past 4 1/2 years I've been really in love with one person. I don't mean my parents or family. But he certainly was as close to me as family as anyone can get. In fact, he was about to become my eternal family. I have recently had to let go of him. I need to let him grow, learn and become his own person. I hope he's able to do that ... soon. Then there still might be a chance for us.

But while he is growing and finding his pather, I'm going to be changing mine. I can't tell you if our paths will cross again. I know I sure hope they do, but for know I can't think about that.

So as I start this new year, I have so many options and so much time. I'll be honest... I'm afriad of what lies ahead. I don't like not knowing what my future holds. At the same time I can't wait to conquer whatever Heavenly Father has in store for me. And oh.... you better believe me.... I WILL conquer it!!!

As for what happens along the way, there is one promise I'm going to make. It is so theraputic for me to blog. I'm able to get all my feelings out and feel like, if nothing else, I know where I stand. I know who I am. I know what I believe.... and to me that's what's most important. So from here on out, I promise to blog every week. It'll be good for me to get everything out. And hopefully it will be entertaining for you all along the way!!!

Here are just a few pictures from the past couple months..... in memory of a great 2009!!!!